Today,
April 25th,
Was the Day of Silence,
And,
Thanks to everyone's help,
We were able to make it a success.
The whole school heard about it,
Some got the details about it wrong,
But most got the picture. :3
But...
I sorta failed.
In 3rd period, I let my guard down and answered Erica's question for Mrs. Baine,
My Environmental Science teacher.
I quickly gasped and shut my mouth,
Before laying my head down sorrowfully.
I couldn't believe I talked that easily!
Then,
4th period came,
And I had to go and give him my packet of papers for Chapter 7,
Which is normal,
But when I did,
He asked me about it.
The thing was,
Amy and I made a silent promise not to talk to anyone.
Not even the teachers.
We were planning on putting up with an In-School-Suspension [ISS] for it.
But,
When he asked me about it,
I tried not to answer,
But I just couldn't do it.
I just couldn't not answer him.
I couldn't.
So,
I eventually took my seat,
And I sat there,
I laid my head down,
And I started to cry.
I thought about how I had let everyone down,
And how hypocritical I was for getting on everyone else for talking,
And then I went and responded to him.
I eventually left the class,
And I went and sat at Lunch with everyone.
I saw Amy there,
And...
I couldn't look at her.
I felt like I had betrayed her,
And left her alone.
She wrote down how I didn't,
And that I was overreacting,
But I didn't think so.
Then,
Clarence came over,
And he stood there,
Looked at me,
Heard me talk,
Shook his head and walked away.
I burst into tears right there,
Trying to hide them.
That hurt.
I know he saw tears in my eyes.
I know he saw how sad I was.
And what did he do?
He stood there,
And judged me.
He might as well have called me a hypocrite right then and there,
Because that's basically what he did.
Only,
Without words.
Today made me realize something.
I've realized that he clearly doesn't care.
It doesn't take a rocket-scientist to learn that he couldn't care less about me,
So I'm starting to wonder why I should care about him.
I...
I'm starting to wonder if I miss being with him,
Or I just miss being up against him.
I'm starting to think it's the second one.
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The Life and Times of Tim
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