I'm done fighting, I'm done pretending, I'm done crying, I'm done dying. I can't take this anymore. Parents think I'm insane so they're making me go to therapy...how fun right? It sucks, and it doesn't help at all. Actually it's just making things worse. I'm glad school's almost over then maybe getting beat up and made fun of will finally stop...or maybe they'll find my house and bully me there too. I'm so tired of running, so I'm not going to anymore. I'm going to take those bitches out face to face and if that's the last thing I do then so be it. No one would miss me, that's one of the things I actually know and understand now a days.. I don't know why I keep on going there's nothing to look forward to...and the only person who could brighten up my day; that actually made me feel important; gave me a reason to live is gone...My head is filled with so many bad things and I don't think I have a heart anymore...at least is doesn't feel like it.
Anyways if I'm not in a few days, just know that I probably killed myself. Why live when there's nothing to live for right? Just pain and misery is what I'm living right now...not too fun...Anna's out!
I dedicate this poem to Jacob
"Seasons"
Leaves fall one by one
But I am not done
Though your body lay limp and cold
I will stay bold
Snow falls this night
Everything is covered in white
I bundle up in my coat
I'm going to give you the note
The buds are coming out of the trees
Your voice, I hear in the dentail breeze
New life is all around me
Everywhere I look that's what I see
The leaves are ready to fall once more
But I will still stand here on the shore
I touch the water with my hand
I know you're with me, just in another land
 miroku fan 101 · Tue May 27, 2008 @ 08:38pm · 0 Comments |
