(August 7, 200 cool
Only 11 days from now my loved will be moving away. (August 18, 200 cool . I have only about a week left with him before he is gone for a while. ( By a while i mean 2-3 years. ) I want to spend as much time with him as possible, but can't really. My parents are not working with me and he can't right now because he is packing his house up.
At night and sometimes durning the day i think of how great life could be if i was with him and he was with me. I think of all the fun times we have and will have. but I also think of when i'm not with him the moments he misses. The few smiles I will share. the dances and party's i'll go to. He'll miss out on a lot of stuff that i don't want him to, but he has too.
The other day in my mind I pictured in my head a girl in a pitch black room. Where she sat crying he eyes out. The i move over and see a girl that's happy and forever will be. I n my heart, mind and soul i hope that i will be able to be happy forever not sad all the time thinking of what could have been.
So the first step to recovery is to climb that long, winding mountain road. And see what happens from there. ( which i am desperately trying to do as hard as fast as i can but time doesn't seem to be on my side.)
 Nelliel_Odelschwanck_Ume · Thu Aug 07, 2008 @ 11:50am · 2 Comments |
