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I was going to write in this with nothing but happy thoughts and rainbows!
But I misread myself!
Instead, it's going to be misery, black hole hearts, and those little monsters that ruin everyone's life called:
-Lies
-Rumors
-Secrets
-Loneliness
&
-People That You THINK Are Your Friends!


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Let's start with misery, shall we?
First, I want to know what REALLY makes you more miserable than anything else.
What makes ME miserable?
The fact that I'm ALWAYS lied to and that my own family NEVER..and mean NEVER wants to listen to the issues in my life that are of the greatest importance to me.
It's always, "I don't care." "I don't want to hear it" "Keep it up and we'll put you in a foster home!" and it''s just [******** STUPID!
It really ******** hurts that I can't open up to my own family because they don't want to listen as much as I always listen to them.


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Second..hmmm..ooh!
Let's talk broken hearts that will NEVER heal because of ex's that are jerks!
My question to you: How badly have you been hurt?
My first bf...he broke my heart and stole AND broke my trust so many times in the matter of a year of being together that I can rarely trust anyone with the littlest things in my life.
But hey, I guess it's my fault for being in an internet relationship with someone that I barely knew, ey?
He originally told me that he was 17, covered in tattoos and piercings with my name tattooed on his neck.
Really?
He was really 24(now 25), lied about the tattoos AND the piercings(which really didn't upset me) AAAAANNDD he is one hell of a junky.
Yeah...sick...he only came out and told me EVERYTHING half way through the relationship.
Plus, he cheated on me multiple times and never stopped.
So....yeah...that's my greatest heartache that has completely ruined my life.


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Third thing?
The first of the little monsters that we call: LIES.
Tell me: What is the one of the biggest lies that someone told you that pissed you off.?
Me?
Of course, the biggest liar in my life(well...not in my life) is my stupid ex bf.
He promised me that he would NEVER cheat on me, flirt with anyone else..and everything else like that.
What did he do?
Cheat out of his a**: I've even caught him cheating 3 times in a row!
The first time was being he was acting odd and wasn't talking to me.
I got one of my friends on the case of that.
So, she added him on msn, they talked, she asked if he had a gf..he said no.
HA! FUNNY RIGHT?!?
So I caught him that time!
The other 2 times were an accident and I didn't have to do crap!
HE TRIED TO CHEAT ON ME WITH MY BROTHER AND I WAS RIGHT THERE WHEN HE FLIRTING WITH MY BRO AND TRIED TO SAY HE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!
Not to mention, he only recently asked one of my best friends out.
I don't know why she would talk to him after I told her NOT to!
(They added each other because Raymond was getting jealous of her, of all people, and he told her to never talk to me and he never wanted me to have friends.)
I'm so mad at her...and she's such a whore anyways..no really..I'm serious..she is.
Raymond Gerard = gothic_emo_demon = Biggest douche bag in the world!

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Let's process to number four, shall we?
Rumors.
My question to you: What is the worst rumor that you have ever heard of? (And it doesn't have to be about you.)
There has never been a rumor spread about me yet, but hell..I'm in high school.
It will happen soon.
So, there isn't much that I can say on this matter as of yet.
All that I can say is the rumors are childish little bedtime stories that only little children tell, THEN it gives them bad nightmares and they wet the bed when the story is about them.

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Monster number five:
Loneliness.
When do you feel the loneliest? What was the loneliest day of your life?
I feel alone everyday.
Due to that, I think too much and it eats away at me and slowly kills me in the process.
My thinking goes to highs and lows that they NEVER should..

And now, our last little monster that will probably ruin your life more than anything else that I have mentioned:
PEOPLE THAT SAY THEY'RE YOUR FRIEND BUT REALLY AREN'T!
Has anyone ever done that to you?
I feel that alot of the people that say that they are my friend now...I bet that if I was in a life or death situation right now, they would just turn the other cheek and act as if they knew me.
Fake people...don't you just hate them??

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Well, I'm sorry if this damped anyone's day and I'm sorry if I got person asking the questions, but I would really like some comments and feed back here. So..thanks for reading.