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Honestly, I'm probably at the end of my rope right now.
I don't know what's going on.
I don't know how really cares,
And I'm starting to not be able to tell the difference between real and fake.
I can't turn to either of my grandparents for help because they don't care.
Especially my granddad.
They don't care about the emotes that rage in my heart all at once.
It's light and dark.
Love and hate.
Life and death.
I don't what I'm going to do.
I feel like I'm stuck in a corner here.
I guess...I just need a good solid shoulder to cry on.
To REALLY cry on..
I wanted to cry when I was talking to my friend at lunch today,
But I couldn't let her see me cry..because then she'll cry too.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
Should I lock every negative emotion up?
Or let everything go?
Should I go to a councilor?
Is my mind messing with me?
What??
What is it..???