...And nothing else matters. I live in a nightmare. Everyone I know is hurting me. I'm being betrayed, back stabbed, uncared for... What's most- I'm not being treated like a human being. The one thing I think I deserve, I'm not getting. I thought that... maybe people loved me. That maybe they'd be saying 'thank you' every once in a while. Just for me being nice, caring for them. But no. I don't ask anything in return for my kindness, but it'd be nice if people would think of others now and again. But people are selfish creatures. They only think of themselves. I guess, the moral of the story is, people slap you right in the face in return for your kindness. Because no matter how much I care, no matter how much I love them... It's never enough, is it? It HURTS. A lot. I'm dying, and nobody cares enough. They won't love me. I'm just going to fade away... The day I die, nobody's going to care. Yeah, they might miss me a little. No, they won't miss me- they'll miss how much they could take advantage of me. Soon after, I'll be forgotten, and life will go on without me. As it always does. I don't look like myself anymore. I'm growing skinnier. I've overdosed on pain relievers. I've cut and burned myself. And does anyone care? No. No, they don't. I figure if no one else cares about me, why should I? Let me ask you something: If I jumped off a building, and you were there to happen to catch me by the ankle... And I said, "I want to die! Just let me go!", would you? Let me go? I know a lot of people who would. I'm dead to them already, so why not be dead to the rest of them for real? I'm not leaving just yet. Maybe I can find my spark of hope.
XxFragmented_RealityxX · Sun Jan 25, 2009 @ 06:26pm · 1 Comments |