Why is it that I can't stop thinking about you is it because you're dead? Or is it because you're one of my best friends? Everyone keeps reassuring me that I'll see you again in heaven. I don't doubt that I'll see you again but what if it's that I don't see you in heaven but in the next life.
Why is it that I can't stop thinking about you? Chelsea why did you have to go.
I had a nightmare last night I had to attend your funeral again. Only, it was open casket. You were... all bloody and skeletal. As they pulled you back up from the front one bony arm reached out and you screamed, loud as a banshee. When I woke I couldn't stop crying I couldn't stop thinking about you I couldn't stop knowing that you're gone.
I wish I could move on but it feels like I can't. I wish I could hold you again kiss you again like all those times we did after Guild.
Sometimes I can't help but to wish that it was me in that casket not you you didn't deserve to die. But someone brought up an interesting point to me- you were suffering in this world and maybe death is what brought the end to your suffering. I refuse to think anymore that it should have been me in that casket but still, it shouldn't have been you anyone but you.
XxFragmented_RealityxX · Mon Nov 23, 2009 @ 04:16am · 0 Comments |