I just don't know what to SAY anymore- maybe it would have been better if I never said anything at all. But that's life, no matter the good deeds you do, you get slapped in the face in return. And what do I do? I keep walking, that plastic smile smeared on my face for an eternity.
But in my head, I think. I wish I could say what I though out loud- but there are no words for it! Everything comes out wrong, all mixed and mashed together in a jumbled mess. There's no getting around it- I am the world's loudest mute.
I just don't know what to SAY anymore- of course, you mutter under your breath to me. You had nothing worthwhile to say in the first place. I know that, of course, it was all a rouse just to get by and do my job. But now.. I'm out there. Thinking for myself.
A questionable mind? I say not, just... One that's off on its own. I can scream and shout all I like- it's no use. I'm just another face in in the crowd, another unnoticed amoeba in this collective crowd of germs. And even with the loudest voice, the highest fist held in the air... I am gone, invisible to the deceptive eyes of the world.
So, for now, I do not sleep. I wait.
XxFragmented_RealityxX · Mon Mar 09, 2009 @ 12:32am · 0 Comments |