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---SOUTHERN RAIN---
I see a face within the clouds and turn to run and hide
Twenty giant stone-rot eyes
Stabbing through my windowsill

The rain runs red when first it tides
Crimson tears, it pacifies
The laughing on my windowsill

Tiny digits paint, with blood, the memory of home
Obscenely happy clicking strokes
Tapping on my windowsill

I slowly crumble down and die, leaving here alone
Those final ticking metronomes
Lapping on my windowsill
The drops as thick as stones

I weep and cry into the night
The name that once I knew
But no one lies with my sight
The rain reminding me of you

I lay their, chest below the waves
That gather in the earthen clay
I drown into a solemn wake
Three thousand miles away
The rain reminding me of you

Well. Another one that passed my rant check. *nods*

I spent the afternoon away from my computer today. Apparently it had been arranged that I was supposed to go up and eat dinner with some of my family that I actually see quite often already, and to my great dismay I had not been told about it until ten minutes after I was supposed to be there. So clearly I did what needed to be done and begged for the forgiveness of the one I was talking to, the same one that has inspired a good number of these poems btw X), and tore myself away to fulfil what needed to be done. Now, the minute I apologized and left I realized just how much I should have told my family that this young angel to whom I owe so much was far more important than their stupid plans; But nay. I had already decided to kindly leave her side for a single night and I had to remain on course.

So I go there and eat roast and vegetables, and then they get me trapped playing this stupid form of dominoes while I keep trying to find any excuse to leave without just telling them to shove it so that I can get back with maybe just enough time to see off my long-distance love interest... Needless to say I didn't. And when I finally did leave it was raining cats, dogs, and fugging rhinos outside. crying So, I had to drive back with ten feet of visiblity and the previous poem randomly forming in my skull.

I know it doesn't save me the misery of being without her, but it does at least make me think about how happy I'm going to be the first time it rains all the way in what feels like another country; The first time it rains where she and I are together, when I can hold her to himself and just breath in the scent of her hair and the clean earthen musk of rain mingling in to comfort us where we sit. I missed her alot, and well... this is what happened.

~~Enjoy~~


---Another Sappy Poem Expelling Noise---

I thought that I had loved you when we spoke
Everytime I found proof in the joy that you gave
It was like being told each word that I was free
Free of every worry and doubt in my mind
But that love was not love
It was affection and it was true
And next you said great plans
And cold good byes
Because the warmth of waiting
Until it hurt us no longer
Was not ever to have been
And so you left with emoticons and words
I never held you near
Nor touched you when
Our time was coming to an end
And so I knew another proof
That surely this is love
I felt the thing like being told
That life was fading from my blood
Never once a hope that I would live
Only death inside the single tiny place
Where there would surely be a mirror
So I could watch me fade to dust
But that sorrow too was falsely claimed
No more proof than the affection said
For this feeling was sorrow in truth
This feeling is something I find new
It is nothing like that hollow air
Its not something that is requitable or fair
This is something that I can only just admit
What I feel this time is fear
Every time that you aren’t near
And its tearing me apart
Since can’t run or hide
This is true and this is proof
That there is something deep inside
So help me find
The way into your heart
Or I may die
Before our love can ever start

Help me to be yours or fade away