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Terra Omega Sine
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I stand here
Body half exposed
And my mind half awake
My eyes can see the world around me
Backstage access for my own damn show
And I don't seem to know the way
What is happening or where I need to go

Its like waking up to find me
Adrift on stowaways
Sown of all my dreams and distant songs
Songs from the yester-years
Sown from happy times
And lifted
Fallen chest are raising
All our hands are striking fire
In my eyes

The audience is there
Your curtain has me trapped still
Behind my counter money is
Throwing living fits
Like a child too long from
His mother side

Mother Gaia
Father Time
Son of God
Daughters of the fates in Oz
Christ
Or canny killers
Can you wake

Is this just something that I'm supposed to think I hate
Or am I wrong
I don't know if its alright

I want to give up
Happier once in my life
I remember being like that in mind

I can lay my hatchet down
Simply walk away
Go back to my old ways
And just mark
The shadow's masquerade
It was easier like that
But now it's traded on

I wanted to be free
But tonight you are wrapped inside my heart
And I fear my love may not stay warm
In the ice of
Distance
Is too great
For me to see

Even warnings of the past
Cannot seem to have outlast
The quaking in my mind
As I cast it once a side
And now I see its blade
But my belly is too weak
To ever be betrayed
It runs
When its scared
Half hidden in despair

Oh god am I just quaking in my boots

I am scared

I am scared of everything about you

I am so scare of hurting you
And I am weak

Forgive my mind
As it seeks an easy light
That it can strike

Just hold me down

And I will always be around
Until the distance fades away
And I can make you see that I see
The world so absolute in you

My love is absolute in you

But I am scared of fearing love should then it hurt

Too much to cry

I am lost on coming home
And I am scared beyond my wits
Too much to simply scream
And far too much to cry