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This Heartbreak Will Never Be Forgotten In Her Memory
Hello everyone. So in my last blog I said that I would blog again about the first day of school. Well, my parents have been bitching again as usual so I haven't had a good chance to get on myspace to write this. Ok, so school has been going well. I've made some new friends, and gotten settled in my classes. I have figured out that we probably accidentally killed the second coming of Jesus without even realizing it. Also, Matt has agreed to give me ManWhore Inc. when he graduates. I felt so proud biggrin And um the homecoming dance was great, although everyone left early, so we went to Charlie's house and chilled lol. So um yeah, so I got a new girlfriend until last week. Her name was Katie, and she was really cute. ^^ Lol um she was just different, and she stood out, and I liked that. As Matt's lackey and a certified manwhore, I proceeded to have sex with her a total of three times. And the first time was BEFORE we went out. That was the point when I proclaimed myself an official manwhore. But um yeah, she suffered from worst depression than I do, and we had some incidents but managed to get past them. Plus our parents are really strict so we didn't see each other often. But even still, she became really close to me, and since I'm not good at remembering details I'm not going to just go off and tell a bunch of stories about good times. That's why I prefer to blog often, more details are typed down. Ok, so fast foward to last friday. She texted me out of nowhere and wanted to break up with me. I was confused. At first I thought her mom was trying to make us break up again. On saturday, I went to this girl scout thingy down at Kristen's church and talked to her and everyone else. She just didn't see me enough, and even though she still loved me, she didn't want to bother anymore. On Monday I went over and talked to her and confirmed this. We even made out a couple of times. But I saw that she had been cutting herself, and she told me how a teacher at school yelled at her over some stupid s**t and threatened to embarass her. I went home, and was talking to hailie and sydney, and I knew that I was just gonna have to get over her. Being friends with benefits would not last, because I knew that Hailie liked me, and I would probably be dating her soon. Katie even encouraged me to date her. So anyway, I was texting the two of them when I get a call from Katie. This is where I have trouble typing. Katie said that I shouldn't talk to her ever again. She said she was tired of society, and that she was dropping out of girl scouts and going to lakeside. And this was her decision. I broke down in tears and tried to get her to change her mind, but she just said bye and hung up. I cannot believe the depression went this far. Words cannot describe how I feel right now. She abandoned us all. I lost my closest friend on Monday. I will probably never see her again. Although I will keep hope of seeing her for the rest of my life, I know that most likely she is gone forever. But I will never forget her. Nor will any of us. Although she denied over and over not having any friends, she does. And all of us will remember her. Well, I'm going to go now. Goodbye, and hopefully I will be able to blog sooner this time. crying
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