Diary,
Lately I've been unable to eat. I feel like a damn vampire -- little to no sleep, hardly eating and all this music I've been listening to lately feels like my attitude has changed. Feels wierd. I just need more sleep I guess. I got sick again today and there was red in the stool. I wonder if I threw up blood or if it was something else. I was thinking of telling my aunt, but she might freak out and take me to the hospital. But then again, that'd be good. I'd be so afraid though of worrying Youssef >.< But... then again, maybe he wouldn't care. He'd probably think, 'No Janny means I get Brooke now'. He'd probably go with her then >.< Ugh, I know he's going to. He loves me though, but he loves her too. Maybe if he loves me enough, he won't go to her. Just think about it, but not actually do it. Well, I gotta end this for now. Take care.
Until another day beckons,
Farewell~
NakatamiHigurashi Community Member 
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