Aww man, when did my life go to hell? I'm depressed, the psychologist pisses me off even more, and I've got nobody on my side right now. Now, before, in times like these, I would go to Dominic. But seeing as Dominic tried to get into my pants recently and I'm still seriously pissed off at the jackass, that's out. I would go to my former BFFs, Madi and Jackie. Well, they hate my guts because of something I did to save the woman I loved even more heartache. I would go to my mom. But as patchy as our relationship is, I think she would just blame my problems on me just like she always does. And finally, I've been going to God, but two months of prayer hasn't done s**t. I really miss Madi and Jackie right now... They would know what to say to make me laugh. And I know Madi would have a hug waiting. I feel so betrayed by them... They didn't even take time to listen to my side of it. Out of sight, out of mind I guess. I've cried myself to sleep so many nights thinking about them... Mostly about how I feel as if I've disappointed them. They hate me, and I still love them enough to cry over them and lose sleep over them... And that makes me feel worse. Some nights I wish I could just end my pathetic excuse for a life.
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