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Departure/Return
By Dominick Cortes

It began with a suicidal attempt
The knife sharp, first at my neck
Couldn't handle the abuses of Life no more,
What sort of child could walk in Darkness forever?

You then came, the Love and Light one only needs
Blinded me so good
I believed to be an Angel
One on your own par

But even Angels have their tricks don't they?
Kept my abuses quiet
My smile was all you wanted to see
No matter how much I tore inside of you.

You took flight, departed from this life
Left to save your own morality and soul
From this hungry, desperate monster
Tired of everything I stood for...

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Everyday became a chore
Living wasn't living no more
It was just existing
Nothing was ever the same.

The sun never felt right
The sky only brought me down
Everywhere I turned, my soul tore went astray
I was in complete dismay.

I decided to run from it all
Find that sweet liquor to knock up my depression
Look for it in every crack and corner
Yet only found true sorrow.

One hit after the next
Every lie after every ********
Broke this already soul once more
Not ever moving that knife one inch away.

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Laying almost dead
My eyes swollen from the adjust of Darkness
Hands and legs grow weak
Can't take much more...

Until you've returned again
Again, that shining light that lit my soul on fire
Burned away all suffering
Made these eyes see again

Bullets never laid me down
Revived with your presences...
No one could ever fill this hole
Only your smile can.

Now, all I can stand for is for you.
All I can see and feel is you
And I know
This will be my end one day...