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Hey Guys. Sorry that I haven't worte in a while. Just been busy.
I just wanted to tell you that me and my ex broke up and well after we re broke up and well he was becoming a jerk. Like after we re broke up.... he called me a b***h when i was talking to david, via text. wow you are so manley. And he was then sexting my best friend which really pissed me off. Cuz well we haven't even been re-broken up for a month and you already are doing this. well that's bogus. and when he called me out on it he was like when we weren't togther how i did my own single thing, like partying, and stuff and well hanging with my guy friends. Ok even if I did my own thing i waited like 3-4 months till i did my own thing. So he shouldn't get pissed about it. and well i called him about it and i think now we civil, but i highly doubt it gonna work, cuz well after i called him out about it,he had the nerve to ask me back out. wtf? i mean even if i did wanted to get back with him,,, he ruined it cuz he did all this s**t. But im realizeing that i have had bad times with guys.. i mean not all guy i have had good realtionships with some guys, but as of now idk. Me and Realtionships are well complicated.
I mean with my ex we were doing good, but he called me out cuz i wasn't fully hanging with him. I mean ok so what i have other friends that i don't see much cuz they moved to far away, and he never fully asked if he wanted to hang. so that's his fault. not mine. right?
and well memeber hwo i mentioned this guy david who is unbelieveably hot and dreamy!!!!!!!!! well it has been complicated now. I mean well When we first meet it was great. we texted all the time, and sometimes we can hang. but now. he barley text me unless its something important like me goign to one his shows. like i still like him and well i wanna be with him, and i hope he does with me. because i can really see something going between us like something commented. But i think the reason why it is being like this is because well when we meet we may have sorta moved to fast. like i will admit i tend to move fast and be a rebel when i don't have a bf or anything cuz i figure you only live once so why not live and be you. like when we meet we may have had a lil fun time, like making out and um..... a little more. but we figured we shoudl get to know each other more. i mean their are some days where he is a super sweetie to me. i mean i hope he still likes me and he would like to be a bf to me. cuz well i never liked a guy like this. I don't know. I just been thinking that love is well very complicated and confusing, i just hope it will get better and i can find a nice guy. But then i also think that the reason why i have been feeling like this cuz i have alwasy obbossed with boys or finding a nice guy for me. cuz i want to be liek my friends with such a good guy and i can't get one. i guess its 50-50.