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this is what i wroteHey.... So my ex is still being a jerk and when i try to be civil it seems like it continues getting worse no matter what. Here's what happened. Thursday me and my friends were going out for pizza to hang out and catch up because i haven't really hanged with them sense spring break. So while me and the girls were going to get my one friends bf and his buddy. she tells me that my ex has been talking to her and flirting with her. i.e. oh i miss you and im thinking about how we can be toghther. when my frined has a new bf. So yeah i wasn't a fan of that. so after we all get pizza and she takes me home. Later on i text him wanting to know if it true and if he can please stop.He got into it like saying oh how i hurted him, and he can do whatever he wants. when again i knew my friend for 3- almost 4 years. its not cool. and he says i broke up with him again 9memeber we got back toghther over christmas break but we broke up, because he was moving to napperville and i felt like he couldn't handle a gf and moving and a new school. if i wasn't going to get wiht my new bf now. it would have been like 30% chance i get back with him. When the other reason i broke up with him is cuz because i just didn't feel contection anymore. i mean when we kissed or hanged.... i felt nothing. no matter how hard i tried. at first i thought it was cuz we haven't been toghter for a while. so i broke up with him. not for my new bf. because at the time my new bf now when me and my ex broke up he was still with his now ex gf. so mr. douchebag ex. why would i break up with u to get with a guy that still has a gf. yea get ur fact right. and after me and him were fighting via text he told me friend what she told me and now my friend is/or was upset with me.... i don't know if she 100% forgave me for getting her invvolved with the drama betwwen us. i wouldn't blame her if she still upset. My ex has basicaally caused so much s**t between us. I was with him for almost 3 years. my sr. year while all my single sr. friends were hanging out, going parties and et. cetera. And I would u know be with him and hang out with him. Their goes basically m entire sr. year was him. omg, he is a jerk.Like out of all the nice things he has done and i didn't really have to ask for him to do were....give me a present for my birthday. and every now and then he would come to my house to cut my grass cuz i couldn't do it because of my hip dyslpsia. and give me gas money when i piced him up. but even with then nice things he has done for me it was then later associated with drama.such as....dealing with him family drama when i have my own.2. the fact his a** in high school. and when i graduated from school he was a sophmore. (when his a** should have been a sr. with me)3. my family didn't apperciate him and thoguht he was a bad person for me and he well a total jerk.4. On my 18th birthday. liek the friday before my real birthday and i was going to be out of town for a band feild trip for a week. my friends were throwing me a party but i couldn't go cuz i was really sick. and even though my friends were a lil upset they semi understood. But he wanted to go out and etc. and im like dude im ******** sick! i cant get out of bed and i gotta get well before band tour. 5. He would get jelous. liek if i tell him that oh im hanging with my guy friends he would be like u better don't hurt me or etc. For example like my gay friend wanted me and all his femlae friends and his now fiancee wanted a ggno and he was like why can't i come. and he never understood the fact that i wanted to hang with friends and stuff. and i left my purse in my friends car. and i didnt have pockets so i asked him to hold my phone and i went to the bathroom and he well he texted me and he said that i was in the bathroom. and well he was pissed off about it. and well he basically had a bad attuitude via text. 6. Oh he also wasn't a fan of my bisexuallty. Cuz one day i had this friend Kassidy and i thoguht she was cute. and i told her that i am bi and if she wasn't straight and wasn't with her bf i would maybe go on a date with her. I didn't knwo she went to this one church with my ex and he texted me saying why didn't u tell me u find kassidy attractive and dah dah! like ok jerk im bi u should know that i fidn girls attractive. and he was pissed. Wtf i can't help t that i am bi. it is who i am. And again tying into his jelousyoh and a interesting fact when we broke up and was still broken up and he wanted to hang with my friends bianca, carlos, anthony, and amy. I had a crush on my buddy carlos friend anthony for a while. I mean he was funny, we have the same taste in music , we both had a momenterally evil thoughts. and he was skateboarder and he was cute. i wanted to ask him out the day we hanged out i could tell my ex was getting jelous. cuz my ex was obbossed with rap and i hate rap. I also think he knew i was going to ask him out so at the end of the day he asked me back out. so yeah. i think my ex and i shall never be cool at least not for a few years if i believe. and the awakard part is like next month im going to napperville to celebrate my borthday at this club down there. and i think he may be there. and it will be awakard. espically if he see my bf. but yeah. thts all i gotta say about my ex cuz i wish he would be civil andn ice to me. i guess that will not happen. at least for a while.