Even do I vowed to never cry again except if extremely necessary, but right now... Tears are coming out of my eyes and they won't stop...
Thank goodness that no one can see me because I look so pathetic... My nose is starting to run and my eyes are watery. *sniffs*
Lately, I've been depressing more as the days pass. I feel all alone and that no one understands me. I've felt a bit left out everywhere and it pains me so much. But maybe, I'm just overreacting like I always do. Well, that's what I thought in the beginning and I thought that time would make things better, but it just made it worse. And now, I broke down! So I'm at my worst, crushed and everything. I really feel like screaming and punching everything!!! But I can't, it's almost midnight and I have school tomorrow. School is almost over, only a month of sufferings left and I'll be free... Till that day comes, I will be sad and annoyed. But I'll still put on a happy face around people like they like it so much. Even if my self-esteem is crushed...
Finally, I know what I want to in my life. I want to work in the UN and become one day the general secretary. "Forget about it KC, you'd never be able!" is what you're all probably thinking. But I really want to make the world a better place so I will do everything I can to make that possible and if I become the general secretary, I could change the world. Don't worry, I'll get the support of strong and powerful people as I build my way to my ultimate goal. Even do I love money, I will not be corrupted by it in such a delicate domain. One of my friends once said "There's no hope for Africa KC! Do you really think you can do something about it? Personally, I doubt it." Well, I'm gonna make you eat your words when I'll be able to change it. With smart, non-corrupted leaders and no stupid exchange politics in Europe and United States, Africa would be able to win 180 billion dollars a year: 3 times the help of development!!! My history teacher thinks that I can get into the UN because he believes in me and that made me very happy. Plus, my brother and sister want to work there so it won't be too difficult for me to get in then. I will make sure that African kids don't die from hunger again because that is for me the worst death ever. I can't believe how people are extemely selfish and only thing of money and themselves. Sure I think about money because I want to buy lots of things that I will useful to me. But I also want to become super rich so that I can help those who don't have anything.
I do feel better now, after writing all of this. Plus, I was cheered up by a friend that I love so freaking much! Thanks dude, you're my ultimate favorite! 4laugh heart
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By the way.. when you say a friend told that it was hopeless for Africa. Were you talking about me? If yes.. well, I still stick with my idea, but I guess I forgot to mention that even if I think it's hopeless, there's still a little hope. And I think there are two ways to make this hope come true. 1) If the leaders of Africa were actually humble enough not to cheat on it's own country, which I guess will never happen or.. 2) If another country would impose it's power at least until it would become ok.. however, they might rebell because they'd feel like they're being colonized rather than being helped. However, this situation might actually be possible if the person chosen from another country to lead Africa was actually an African and whoever is more eligible than you? xD And what you wrote about there that others think you won't be able.. well, not me. I always believed you had great potentials in history and politics.. maybe not too much in economy, but if you stayed awake and gave in just a little bit more effort, I know you can do it. So don't give up, and once you'll become a great leader.. well.. don't forget me. xD
There end of encouragement by stating the obvious fact. xD