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Is There Something Wrong with Me?
The only "fully sane" people in my family are my mother and my perfect older sister. Of course, they are the ones that say this. My dad, my little brother, me; appearently we all have "problems with our heads". My mom thinks that we all have ADHD. But none of us are hyper, but we all have something wrong with us. My little brother daydreams a lot, is a little secluded in school, and can't stay organized. My dad smokes, drinks lightly, and is always upset. As for me, I need to be thrown into a straight jacket. I have an anxiety for failure. I was rasied in a matter where we try to excel, whether or not we get happiness out of it. It's to the point where if I do something wrong, it's like the incident follows me around and haunts me. I was always warned that unless I'm aware, terrible things will happen. But it was made to sound like "I" would be the one implying the terrible things. Basically, I feel as though I'm being treated like a person with mental retardation. I'm not exactly normal. It's not like I dress completely left of center or do really dangerous stupid things, I just do do things exactly like everyone else. For example, at a softball game I was playing in, I had to run to second. The second baseman was about to pick up the ball "right smack dap on the baseline". The last time I ran around someone like that, I got called out, so instead I jumped completely over the baseman as she knelt down. I still got out though because my foot accidentally touched her shouler. She wasn't hurt or anything. My mother was upset with me for being odd. I might have something wrong with me, but listen to this. It's the interestingly weird people you remember and it's the normal boring people that you forget.
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