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I know this is usually something you write when you are really ticked off, but that is not the case. At the moment for which I am writing this, I am of stable mind and temper. I am merely listing off all the reasons while my sister makes me so unhappy. Think of it as freedom of speech.
First of all, my life is her side life. She always wants to know everything personal about me. "Have you kissed Jerry yet? Why don't you do this? Why are you wearing that?" She knows that I like keeping my thoughts and feelings private. My life is my little world that I feel safe about when it is not being invaded. It's practically unhealthy how much I keep to myself, but it's what makes me feel comfortable. In a world where you are always being judged (and this goes for everybody too) it might seem like a bad idea to reveal yourself. But when you are being judged in your own home...you can't help but want to keep things secret.
Secondly, she takes every little fault in my existance and turns it into a weapon against me. The biggest one is my boyfriend. She tries to make me feel ashamed of him just because he doesn't meet her expectations. I am happy with who I have so let me be!
And third, she absolutely HAS to be the superior. SHE has to issue all the chores that mom told us to do. SHE has to be the one to decide what music we are listening to. SHE has to be the one leading the pack. Whenever I acheive something that she failed at, she gets angry. My sister has what I call The Liquid Density Inferiority Complex. Oil is lighter than water. The oil represents my sister and and the water represents me. In a "stable" situation, the oil sits on top of the water due to its lower density. But when the oil sinks belong the water (representing me taking some standing point over my sister) then there is obviously some scientific disaster occuring witht the physics of nature (or, my sister not being able to handle being beneath me for a moment). Therefore, the universe falls apart and my sister starts a war.
Well, that's all the reasons I can think of for now. Until I can think of more, that's my story and I'm stickin' to it.