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My grandma was telling me a couple of days ago that I'm holding D.D. back from having a good life. I can't help it if I love her. And then people say that if you love something, you should set it free. But she's the last dog I'll have until I move out and have enough money to buy my own. And I know I'd cry everyday and never be the same again and I'd go into deep depression and go emo and maybe even cut, but I don't like blood and pain so I probably wouldn't and I hate it when people make you feel so bad and that you have to do something that will hurt you really bad but you know it's the right thing and you should do it, Kailee is the only one that thinks she has a happy home and I'm not even sure anymore and I hate it when people make me feel this way, because I want the dog to be happy but I also need to think about my life and D.D. has a bad one here and I'd probably just die without her, but I'm only being nice to my friends and family and I'm not thinking about her but when I am and I know I'll be sad but when I'm happy she's sad. So wtf can I do? Kailee keeps on telling me that she's happy and she loves us and she has a happy life, but I also see how my parents and my brother yell at her and I don't know what to do. I'm already falling into a deep depression and it's Kailee and my pets keeping me from being all sad and stuff and yet I still am but not as bad as it could be, so I need everyone to make me happy or else I will have to go to therapy and never be better. So.......should I give her away or should I keep her?