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I now know my full nobody name.

Cilaxia, the Manipulative Dramatist. [It was Faker, but Dramatist sounds more like Nocturne, or Nymph, or Academic. >->]

I wrote out my current thoughts while talking to Erik, and I don't feel like retyping them. [Yes, CilaxiaDaydream is my AIM screen name. But I replaced Erik's incase he doesn't want any Gaians stalking him.]

Erik: =[
CilaxiaDaydream: Frownie face at you too.
CilaxiaDaydream: =[
Erik: T.T
CilaxiaDaydream: Do you think anyone realizes that, when I say these things, they're just cries for attention?
CilaxiaDaydream: Or that all I want in life is for people to notice me?
CilaxiaDaydream: People to be there for me?
CilaxiaDaydream: People to actually give a ******** about me?
CilaxiaDaydream: That's all I ever want.
CilaxiaDaydream: And I never feel like I get it.
Erik: I care about you
CilaxiaDaydream: But can you care about me all the time?
Erik: I do.
CilaxiaDaydream: One person doesn't satisfy me.
CilaxiaDaydream: I'm an attention whore by nature.
CilaxiaDaydream: I need people to see me.
CilaxiaDaydream: OR, I don't know.
CilaxiaDaydream: I go into these weird phases.
CilaxiaDaydream: Where I try to pic what emotion I want to convey.
CilaxiaDaydream: Or what I want to feel.
Erik: *Pick.
CilaxiaDaydream: =./
CilaxiaDaydream: ******** off.

Yes, I whine. Yes, I want you to notice me. Yes, if you don't notice me, I will annoy you. Yes, I will play with your emotions. Yes, I will manipulate you into doing what I want.

Do I want to hurt you? No. Will I, though? Most likely. Is this another one of my cries for attention? I didn't intend it to be. I just wanted to make everyone aware. And I wanted to procrastinate on my homework. XP

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