just when it cant get get any worse, my life is tangled in so much s**t and everyone elses lives effect me too.
this is how it goes [sorry for my rant here]
i broke up with my boyfriend. great guy. anyways, i totally got into this guy who is perfect but he is taken. then there is my ex who is into my best friend in barrie and she is into this other nerdy guy. then there is my other good friend at college who likes me but he is a good friend and i am not sure. there are a few other people who i have turned down, but there is something in this guy i love and i wanna be apart of. but i camt have it. every day i cant stop thinking about him and i cant stop thinking about the things i like about him and the things that just probably wont happen. it hurts a lot. maybe i am just being selfish.
then my ex gets jealous sometimes that i have something to hold onto. he hates it when i want something and i cant have it.
i really am trying to do something right but i mean...i dont know. where and when do you draw the line? when do you say it is ok to be selfish? when is it ok to say.... you are in love with someone when they are not available.
at least my ex is there for me.
 Adiiru · Fri Apr 27, 2007 @ 07:13am · 0 Comments |
