I want off, I want out, I want, I want, I want!!! Too bad I still want it! God this past week has been the roller coaster ride from hell and I'm still on it! I reeeeaaaalllllyyyy need a break I mean some serious down time. If only I was at the beach in my bathing suit soaking up the sun that would be glorious, hot guys everywhere, playing volleyball and the gentle waves crashing at the shore. *sigh daydreams a bit* Alas, tis not so. Maybe I will move away to the UK that would be unbelievable and soo grand. No doubt it would be difficult at first but I've heard that you can get a job there easy and live the life of a European. I could write, work and be at ease with myself and I year would be enough. I know, I know, but you're running from your problems......blah blah blah, what problems?? I keep trying to see them but they don't exist or at least they are no big deal. Ok so I have no job but come on this is Madera, cow central, Little Mexico, creeps up the wazoo and no fine boy to be found. Maybe I should just realize that I shall be alone for the rest of my life, not one guy is interested in me or at least has the guts to come out and say, "hey you wanna hang out, catch a movie??" well one did but he is a shithead and has money so why not?? I'm a horrible person, well, to him at least. The one person I do want to be with is over 2000 miles away and really that isn't very scary to me I've moved many times and I like change, I adapt well. Soo here I am but not really here in reality mostly in my little world you may have heard me say it before, The Green Willow Forest. The only place that is my own, that no one not even my mother can control. I crave to control things mostly my life but it really isn't my business!
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