So get this... I was sleeping, right, and then my bf wakes me up. (Btw, hi Hideki, since I know you'll read this too) and tells me that he read something I saved on the comp. No big deal- 'cept for the fact that he understood that if I didn't show him what I had, then it wasn't for his eyes to see. So what does he do? He wakes me the hell up just to put into tears for the next 2 hrs because what he read he was never supposed to see. See, he knows that my online ex, Donnie, and I... Well he knows that Donnie treats me like friggin s**t and that for some stupid reason I still have feeling for the jackass and he seemed somewhat ok with that. So I cybered with Donnie one night and saved it because I do to all cyberings and Hideki, my bf, had the nerve to wake me up and tell me read it. I was like wtf...? So we had our little "Do you really love me or him" talk and established I'd rather be with hideki than with someone who's gunna treat me like s**t. The only reason we cybered was because I miss him... And Hideki flipped out because I CYBERED- not real- CYBERED with him and the dude lives in like IL or something. I've never even met him before so it's like wth is your issue. Yes, my perception of online is whatever happens online, is how it would happen IRL so like say I started feeling up some random chick (I'm bi- get over it) online, that means I'd do it IRL too. And Hideki knows that but still it's not like his d**k even went in me so it's like stfu... I know I sound like a freaking prep but I'm so pissed right now... Because after the whole arguement, he has the nerve to tell me that he's read EVERYTHING that I've ever written when half of it either wasn't his business, wasn't for him to see, or I was waiting to show him later for something specail and now it's all ******** down the tubes because this jackass is a goddamned snoop. So now I don't know how the hell I can trust if he's gunna go through all my s**t and read all my stuff- I can never write anything private ever again?? That's what my life's been revolved around for years- writing and now I have to stop that because that SOB has some nerve to search through my files and read s**t that I had no intention of him seeing? And because I know he's gunna read this too, thanks, Hideki, for making me the happiest person in the ******** wrold... Thanks for the b-day gift too... Now that I'm too pissed to even play it... *Curls up.* At least Nancy stayed out of my personal writings, Hideki... I mean, she didn't give a s**t- didn't want to read it... But she still stayed out... Thanks a ******** pile...
 Arius Shadow · Wed Nov 29, 2006 @ 07:43am · 1 Comments |
