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Things are... Bad. School is terrible, home is even worse, my life just seems to be falling down around me, and there is nothing I can do about it! I'll start from the beginning.

((Names changed))

Marie and Hariet were arguing on MSN, and then Marie said something really out of order to Hariet, so Hariet said that she was gonna smack Marie and I said don't bother, so Hariet immediately assumed I was sticking up for Marie after she'd said what she said. But I wasn't, I just figured what would she achieve out of hitting someone? So Hariet fell out with me, and we had this big argument which meant Kate fell out with me, Hariet's best friend.

Now, I knew this other friend since we were 4 or 5 and we have been best friends since, she fell out with me because I was annoying her and we had this massive argument which dragged Marie into it. Our head of year got involved and had a go at everyone involved with both arguments.

Then my Mum and Dad started arguing, and my Dad threatened to punch me, and my Mum is getting really depressed about the whole situation, but she can't leave the house because then there is a high possibilty my Mum won't get anything if she does leave him.

My school grades are slipping, my behaviour is slipping and so is my reputation!

I'm doing crap in sports and all sorts, my social life is slipping and I just feel so hopeless.

There is nothing I can do, i've even been advised to see our Student Councellor!!

I was in tears today, I was so upset and just so angry and I just wanted to lay down and die! There is nothing I can do!

I feel like I don't have any true friends any more, I feel like a loner...

No one can help me though, no one understands. My closest friends have left me, and i'm in one of the most important years of my school life so I can't change schools...

I can't start over, I can't do anything! I'm stuck with my Dad until around the end of the month, most likely even longer! I just can't break away, I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything...

I just want to go, dissappear, I just want someone to make it all go away.

Yeah, they're not the worst problems in the world, but it feels like the worst... It's driving me up the wall, not knowing what's going on, not knowing who I can turn to...

Someone... Help me...