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Do it once, do it twice
Nothing ever comes without a price
I've turned a billion heads before
But I can't take it anymore
My efforts go unnoticed here
Yet around the world, they shed a tear
They weep over themselves, worthless and jaded
As the stars above find themselves fading
Addiction grasps in a sinister hold
Dragging me in with lies untold
A shattered heart repairs itself
As burning flesh prepares to melt
Every kiss, every whisper
Floating in the sky of silver
Addicted to the grand design
That I know and cannot deny
Acceptance from a mercy angel
My shattered spirit fills a page full
Useless ideas and lyrics dark
Waiting for the angels to make their mark
Every hour I wait alone
Every moment chills me to the bone
Praying and wishing for the strength in me
To rise above and grant you glory
If only I was just a little more strong
Then I could learn from the times I was wrong
Page after page of useless words
Mean nothing to this complex girl
Angel above, I don't want a gift
A miracle, or wings to lift
All I want is the strength to find
That all my pain was all in my mind
Angel in Heaven or Demon in Hell?
I throw myself down the wishing well
I wish to know my savior's face
And whether I trust his calling place
If you are Angel, descend on me
Grant to me your liberty
If you are Devil, stay away
I want none of your cruelty and lies this day
Self-Control is my weakness
It's brittle and weak like fragile glass
It shatters and I'm left alone
Like so many years before have done
My gnarled spirit finds release
Every few days, or perhaps a week
The only time I feel accepted
Is when I'm succumbing to my addiction
Don't you see? This is why
I beg and scream and weep and cry
It's not your touch that drives me mad
But the feeling of false hope inside my head
A foolish belief, but one nonetheless
As my need for healing and a simple caress
Grows deeper and deeper with each passing day
I understand if you don't feel this way
Perhaps it's true, I don't belong
I'm the odd man out in the passionate throng
I'm the one you created by mistake
An accident you didn't mean to make
So why then, dear Lord, am I here tonight?
Is it to find my way in light?
Or is it to simply feel accepted
To drive me from my deep addiction?
Perhaps, dear Lord, we'll never know
For the curtain has fallen on this twisted show
This corrupted play with the sets all ripped
And the actors setting way off script
So, do it once, do it twice
Create a child at any price
I've weeped a billion tears before
But with you, I can cry more.
- by Annabella LeReve |
- Holiday Poem Contest
- | Submitted on 12/12/2008 |
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- Title: Hand of Self Control's Release
- Artist: Annabella LeReve
- Description: This is a poem I wrote that ties in with an original novel I'm creating, starring myself, my boyfriend Jason, and my best friend Vinnie. It's pretty dark for a holiday poem, but there's an underlying message to it in there somewhere.
- Date: 12/12/2008
- Tags: hand self controls release
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Comments (4 Comments)
- justinbieberlover60 - 02/17/2010
- to long but i like it
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- Mizzy14k - 12/29/2008
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That is long
but nice
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