• Lying awake, in a trance, memories dancing.
    Tracing over your face, heart racing.
    Momentary uplifting thoughts, my mind perplexing.
    How can I breath at night, I’m still waiting
    Cautious to a point of stopping, so maddening
    Wishing I could run and hide, stop caring.
    Cast the stone and shatter glass, I’m fleeting
    Grab my arm and spin me round, retreating.
    Vacillating my hopes and fears, consuming
    Backed into a corner one foot out; still trying.
    Cannot mask the dancer nor doll, they’re lying.
    In my dreams, the stranger’s eyes, penetrating.
    How can I tell you how I feel, too confusing.
    When I cannot tell what’s real, insides tearing.
    Help me breath; I cannot see or feel. I’m dying.
    Holding myself, rocking in a ball and crying
    Screaming “you cannot see me”…its terrifying.