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  • Artist Info: A short love thought<br />
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    It’s different to feel this, in a way that you are beyond what you felt. Different and strange, but what is the difference. This feeling when I keep on looking to the face of the moon. Her soft white glow, remains in my mind, the sweetness of its smile. Ah! This must be what they call falling. But who will catch me? Will she catch me if I fall? Why would she by the way? I am nothing in her world but a mere speck of dust flown by the gush of the wind away from her sight. And if ever will I ever reach her if she has drawn a barrier that lets me feel to void her. A moment is all I want, a moment is all I need. That is if I can reach it.<br />
    Yes, of course I can, I can’t give up now, through all that I have been through with her. Maybe I must have gained her trust? But yet why do I feel distant from her, from me? Maybe I feel distant from me, from the self that I really was. The moments, a mere touch, simple warmth, and the soft caress of the wind, is what it consist. But I can foretell it won’t be good, in the end maybe, in the end.<br />
    But … what do I care, no I have to if I keep this stab on my heart forever then I would die by to much bleeding. I would never be disintegrated to that kind of un-honorable death. I should die with dignity, but who said about dying, I should breathe right now. At this very moment then …<br />
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    No I can’t, they are there again the guardians, no I can’t do this I’m to coward to fulfill such a task as hard as this. I can’t I guess it’s to late, look how much they fro lock around her. The way they make her day, oh! I can’t do it … I can’t do that I’m not worth it. It’s too much of a late maybe then I should leave, away from them and her. As much as it hurts me I should do what I must. Then walk away.<br />
    <br />
    “Fenris? What are you doing here?”<br />
    “Ah! Rei uhmm … nothing! What are you doing here at these parts of the castle?”<br />
    “What is life to you?”<br />
    “Silent and serene … like what the sky is. How about you?”<br />
    “Uhmm! Me??…”<br />
    “…”<br />
    “Well to be honest with you, life for me is being someone I owe my breathe for.”<br />
    “Really? How nice of you. I thought you never depended on anybody?”<br />
    “That was before!!! Now is different … everything is!”<br />
    What’s wrong with me here she is right in front of me and nothing but this? I have to tell her or else I’ll live the rest of my life in a nook surrounded by walls as tall as anything imaginable and no way out. “This is insane!!”<br />
    “… Huh?”<br />
    “Ah!! I’m sorry I didn’t mean it I mean!!”<br />
    “What’s wrong?”<br />
    “Nothings wrong … nothings wrong!!”<br />
    Leaving again! Great, you’re just great! A coward you’re a true self proclaimed coward! You never faced reality! You’re always on a cage, shunning every opportunity that shows up in your face. Can’t you at least consider the fact that … maybe she does. Face back now!<br />
    “Ah! In fact there is something …”<br />
    “What is it tell me, I’m all ears.”<br />
    “And heart?”<br />
    “…”<br />
    “You know that there are something’s in life your meant to face?”<br />
    “Yes …”<br />
    “And … and … and you tend to decide to just rather forget it because maybe this something was nothing but your sub-conscious mind. Making up things.”<br />
    “…”<br />
    “What if you considered … I mean decided on facing this, because it kept on stabbing your heart more than a hundred times. Your already torn why continue on?”<br />
    “Haven’t you ever considered that some day you’d forget about it?”<br />
    “How could I??”<br />
    “Sorry …”<br />
    “No … I mean how, if it was a feeling you never felt before … a feeling that’s really bound to hurt you. To let you fall right down the pit of emptiness no one to save you.”<br />
    “You’re waiting for that somebody to save you?”<br />
    “Yes!”<br />
    “…”<br />
    “What do I do?”<br />
    “If I were you I wouldn’t wait for her to act, if you really want to, because you might not know it would be to late to say it to her.”<br />
    “…”<br />
    She knows? She knows how it feels.<br />
    “Then your saying that risk it and hell with everything? Not even considering you’d fail??”<br />
    “Yes, because if you truly love her you should consider the fact that she does same to you.”<br />
    <br />
    Rei looked at his round wondering eyes, feeling the same way as he is.<br />
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    Fenris felt his fingers grow cold of fear, never in his life has he ever felt so down trodden and lost. I’m lost!<br />
    <br />
    He held her hands tight afraid she’d go. But she looked at him with her warm eyes, and he released her. Let her go freely, to the road that lies ahead of her. While he stayed behind, never looking forward or back ward. Instead stood to where he was watching her go her way. His heart torn, feeling all the shame of the world on his face. She looked at him with her small smile and knelt beside him. She wrapped her thin arms around him. And felt towards his cheeks, he looked up at him and said in a whisper.<br />
    “Catch me!”<br />
    And she fell through the pits of emptiness. He reached down to her, but he can’t grasp her. And instead fell following her to where ever she may go. Believing he’d save her in the end.
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