Lies

• Artist: Haseo Hyuuga
• Description: I've come to realize these things about my life. That was my inspiration.
• Date: 08/02/2008
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From the moment I awoke,
The moment I stood,
The moment I took a breathe of air,
I know something was missing.

I'm incomplete,
Shattered inside,
And yet on the outside,
I appear fine.

I laugh now,
I realize the lie I've told myself,
Nothing has changed,
But a little self control.

I need to stand up for myself,
To the one person I've feared my entire life,
The man I call father,
To the man who ruined my mother.

His past, no, my past,
Are not left behind,
He thinks I've truely forgiven him,
I thought I had,
I thought I could.
I lied.

I try so hard,
And back out each time.
He can't see how I hurt inside.
I assemble a plan,
and yet again it ends in disaster.

His past,
My past,
I must take a stand,
And show him how I feel,
Show him what he has to account for.

I'm still afraid,
I think I know what he will say,
More excuses he too has convinced himself are truths.
What is the point,
What will I accomplish,
What would that do?

Give me peace of mind and heart,
So that we may start again.

Comments

[Ospryan]

Lovely. I could feel your pain just for the minute I read this poem, so that's a good thing. However I feel you can work more on making the poem interesting by using some metaphors and alliterations for example.