• It's numb, and it's black
    The numbness is caressing me,
    Holding me close,
    Making sure I feel nothing
    I see nothing, I feel nothing
    It is safe here, in my sanctuary
    My captivity
    My institution
    I try to break free,
    Try to release myself
    Try to tell myself it's all fake
    But I just end up slipping,
    Falling,
    Deeper and deeper into this spell
    This black numbness that soothes me,
    That holds me down
    I feel so safe here...
    But this isn't real
    Slowly, I start to hear a sound
    Bu-bump, Bu-bump
    Like a drum, but more steady...

    The sound is familiar
    I've heard it before, many times
    My body is electrified,
    Brought to life
    I remember feelings-
    The bubbly feeling of real love
    The warmth of another body next to me
    The pain of a broken heart
    The calmness after the cut is made
    And the ease as I watch the blood poor out
    The flutter of my heart as I sit next to him,
    The one that I love
    And then the sudden flash of love,
    All it's irresistible feelings;
    And all it's pains and stresses
    But I reach towards his image, screaming
    Screaming his name
    But nobody reaches back

    My eyes open, and I'm alone
    Sweating, my arm outctreched
    That sound again...
    Bu-bump, bu-bump
    The electricity flows in my veins
    As my heart pushes my essence through me
    The bear of my heart-
    Like a drum, only more steady