• 1/5/09 "Out Of The Dark, Into The Light" By: Brandon K. McLemore

    Everytime I always fall apart, I'll always be there in your heart. I start breaking down as everyone around me fades. Your comfort I seek, only you can give it. Darkness befalls me as I bleed out tears. Lost in my mind I cower there with fears of life. You pull my emotions out of the dark sending light in after them. I got a need for something to love. I got a need for some one to care about me. Yet I cut off all those people, my hate and tention rises as I cry. I run away screaming, "why," and find out that light hides from me. I am disturbed from the girl who broke me up and crushed me to dust. I hate my sins, I hate everyone who trys to help. I hate my feelings, I hate everyone who trys to find them. I hate you for loving me, it hurts when I feel love cause the tears never stop falling. I'm sad cause it hurts inside, your my only savor and lover. Your my hero and my light, I'm ingulphed in all these emotions. You kiss me and wrap around me telling me you'll never let go, you'll never let me fall. All colors fade to black, all shapes become shapless. All this bllod on the wall shows what you say and what I do. You don't care what they say, you still try to pursue me. You try to let out my anger, you don't care if it's released on you. You just want me to see that you will always be there. You try try, even though I wanna die die. Back off I'll take this on alone, I can't do everything for you. I can't do anything for them, I was wrong and still I'm alone. I know all about the lies, I know about what they say. They say this is not were I belong, I feel like dieing. You watch as you see my world turn black, this life can't be right. I've got to escape from this hell tonight cause you've been waitting for me. Please go on don't stay, I can't escape from this dispire. Why are you still here, does some one really care? No...no ones there trying to save me from this nightmare. No....no one cares for a lonely boy, please just let me die with my missery. Is the time right, is this feeling wrong? You don't do what they told you, you still come to me to release this dieing soul from his prison. I am bound by the devil, can't you see me for what I am? I am....loved you say, you want to hold me you say. I am not alone you scream, I am an idiot to even think this you scream. You love me you cry, I am yourd you cry. You push me down on the floor, you kiss my lips with tears in your eyes. No.....I feel something......something for you. No don't cry...don't you worry, I'm set free from Hadeas' grasp. No...I was broken free cause of you, your my key to these shackles. You are the only reason to live now, your love keeps me from thoughts of suiside. Now I let it all out, I cry pools of tears around us. You say, "it's ok Aiden...I'm here for you," as you grab hold of me. Holding me tighter so I won't lose control, this is how it's should be. There and then it all comes out, all my anger, hate, sorrow, lonelyness, dispire, and pain. It is all released through my tears, your touch cleansed me. I felt cut up in life, lossing all my friends. I felt lonely in dispire it seems, I was dieing that night. Take me in you, giving you everything. I am giving into to you, now only dead memories of sitting in the dark. You asked me to look at you, all my hope was gone. The other Me was gone and I didn't know were I belonged.
    Now I walk from out of the dark into the light, hand in hand with you......