• Beautiful Insanity

    Anger in my soul
    Holes in my heart
    I try to hide it
    But it tears me apart

    If I let it out
    I hurt ones I love
    If I give it to God
    It comes back from above

    Deeper and deeper
    Into a hole I crawl
    I use a smiling face
    To camouflage it all

    Happiness is no more
    Love can’t get inside
    My heart grows cold
    The real me has died

    Cuts and bruises
    Get worse by the day
    The pain I feel
    Will never go away

    I scream for help
    But there’s no one around
    My ways of escape
    Can never be found

    Walls close in on me
    I’m going to suffocate
    Tears run down my face
    I now realize my fate

    This heart of mine
    Can not be eased
    My missing you
    Leaves it diseased

    My love for you
    True from the start
    Your selfish antics
    Tore us apart

    My heart stolen
    Shattered in the end
    Nothing is normal
    I’m forced to pretend




    My love and hatred
    Blend into one
    This endless game
    You play just for fun.

    I am left torn
    Yet hopeful inside
    That my love will
    Melt through your pride

    The feel of your touch
    And taste of your kiss
    Are treasured forever
    And always missed

    The more you drift
    The harder it is to let go
    I still love you
    But no one will ever know

    I know I can’t last
    In this life of calamity
    But I love the feeling
    Of this Beautiful Insanity