Missing her

• Artist: The_Angelix_Lover
• Description: I wrote this last year October.
  It had been about...3 months since my ex passed away.
  She meant the whole world to me.
  She was my fiancee, best friend, my everything.
  She died on July 23rd.
  4 days before her 17th birthday.
  And still not a day goes by that I don't sit there and think of her.
  
  
  
  R.I.P.-Sussie Mikaela Tanner.
• Date: 02/09/2009
• Tags: missing

Waking up crying late at night

With your name frozen upon my lips

Groping through the darkness

Before realizing you aren't there



Lighting a candle

Before looking at your picture

Picking it up and holding it close

Wishing you were close to my heart



Looking around in a sadden daze

Before seeing the teddy bear

With the necklace around its neck

Feeling the tears come even faster



Picking both things up

Watching the tear drops

Cascade unto the necklace's pendant

Feeling the pain tear my heart even more



Placing all the things

In their proper place

I curl up and cry

My heart and soul dry



Turning on that song

That was ours since the beginning

Feelings the scream of pain

Frozen in my soul



Feelings myself all out of tears

But having no strength to stand

Feeling so tired

Yet sleep won't claim me.



Blowing out the candle

Surrounding darkness claiming its place

Staring into nothingness

Yet seeing you there



Knowing it was just a memory

Feeling the pain return

Hearing my name being said in your voice

The tears start falling once more



Knowing you are now

Truly gone from this world

I find myself crying more

falling deeper into despair



Feeling myself slip

Farther into oblivion

Hearing your voice

Whispering in the wind...

"I love you.."

Comments

[myshatteredlittleheart]

im sorry for your loss,though im sure you have heard people say that so many times.There is no pain worse then the loss of someone you are in love with.It never goes away even though you wish it would,and some how the pain is conforting because that means she is still in your heart.I hope you will find a way to move on yet remember her at the same time.I lost a friend this year,it was the first time i had lost someone close to me,and that cannot compair to the pain you must be feeling.

[Sweenys_Revenge]

There's a saying.
Memory is like a knife, it cuts you.
I don't think you should have things that cut you in your life.

[LonelyMemory]

It's so sad...
im sorry...