• SUPERNATUALLY INSANE #I


    Number I
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    Painful memories circling my mind like buzzards over a carcass. Thoughts that I think. They disgust me. Most of them have to deal with love and trying to be happy. But that just doesn't seem to be for me. Unrelenting misery. I see things, when I look on other eyes, but it's the same for them. Dothey see what's hidden behind my window of the soul? Do they see what I have done? What I've thought of? Every attempt to find happiness ends in heartache. I seem to be constantly hurting people. Physically and emotionally. I wonder if there is a lost and found for emotional organs. My heart has been lost and if it is to be found by someone, keep it. I no longer have use for it. that what les behind my eyes.

    Number II
    Alone
    As I lie awake, alone in the dark.
    My mind begins to wonder.
    To things I hope to forget.
    Cuts reopen, pain resurfaces.
    Until nothing remains but a knife.
    One smooth motion and it could be over with.

    I take the last step forward.
    Collasping inward, reliving pain.
    My eyes close for one last time.
    Heartbeats grow scarce.
    There he waits.
    Smile turned to frown.
    Eyes full with tears.
    I promise to prevent.

    He whispers 'why?'
    And fall to his knees.
    Exhaling the last of my life.
    I'm left on the floor.
    Cold and alone.
    the way I've been.
    Since the day you said goodbye.

    Number III
    Something Real
    So there is a feeling sought by nearly everyone alive...

    Something that when found id tightly held, so to never loose it....

    Something that when lost has the power to end lives and break hearts....

    Something everyone on the planet, would at one point die to protect...
    It's something most commonly known as love, something as real as life, something as serious as death.

    Something, that's possibly the onlyrealandfree thing we have left!

    Number IV
    If you like to know....
    My heart feels as if it's about to give out.
    Every breath I take seems harder and harder. My mind's sonstantly buzzing with questions, I'll naver have answered. My eyes would be drowning if they could, from all the tears I seem to shed. If I weren't such a coward I'd put it all at end... but no matter what I do, or say I'lll never be able to. Like I'm forever trapped in prison, made of my thoughts and emotions....

    Number V
    The moments in between....[/b]
    In the moments in between...
    Every breath I take, thought it hurts to my very core.
    Makes me know that I love you without doubt and without question.
    Every beat of my heart, though it brings tears to my eyes.
    Makes me know that my love is never ending and is growing greater.
    In the moments between.

    Number VI
    So Much
    A heart can only take so much let down.
    A heart can only take so much anger.
    Before it wants to shut down.
    A heart can only take so much anguish.
    A heart can only take so much misery.
    Before it wants to give up.
    A heart can only take so much betrayal.
    A heart can only take so much heartache.
    Before it wants to break.
    A heart can only take so much haterd.
    A heart can only take so much pain.
    Before it looks like mine.