• Is it not cruel?
    That her influence spurs me to impulsive action
    And yet also drifts me to far-away fantasies
    Is it not cruel?
    That her complexion be so wonderfully niveous
    And yet her personality be painted, expressed with color
    Is it not cruel?
    This terrible, enigmatic hold that burdens me
    And yet be wondrous, familiar, lifting me to the heavens
    Lust?
    Love?
    Oh god, I am so confused