• the first time,
    i was tired, weak, knees of heat,
    i tried to hide it,
    they wouldn't like it.
    i was sweating,
    still dreading,
    but wanting it more than anything.
    i was scared like a weed,
    felt that i had no need,
    the fisher cat gave me heed,
    on to Alice's tea.

    the first time,
    i was motionless,
    afraid they'd be devotionless,
    tired of this hopelessness,
    but when it finally came,
    i will always love this game.

    the very first time,
    i loved.