• ...things i should have never chose...

    Okay it's 11:21 at night. I was really bored. So yeah...Enjoy?

    I should have never chose those things
    I should have never chose that path
    I should have never chose Anything

    Now i am constantly telling myself
    why?
    what happened?
    why did i do that?
    well let's compare?

    Why did I chose smoking
    Instead of education?

    why did I drink
    Instead of hanging with my friends?

    Why did I chose drugs
    over my own family?

    now all I do is sit and write in this ugly journal
    now all I have is nothing...

    no education
    no friends
    no family

    I did't think anyone could pull me back together
    Until you came and brought me out of this despair

    now maybe...just maybe...?
    I ask god
    Can I have a life again?

    Still i'm questioning myself
    but in a good way

    I will never let anyone fall to that level of despair
    I will never make that mistake again
    I will never make myself cause my heart so much misery
    I will Not let any break the way I did
    And I will never let anyone fall so hard

    I've learned that the hard way

    So please listen to my plead
    And don't lose the ones you loved so easily

    Don't runaway
    And especially
    say something before that chance is gone

    Say something because what's right in front of you
    Might disappear when you blink

    Don't hold back
    And please don't be like me
    who had to say those things i should have never chose....