• I saw life
    again
    I was separated from feeling for so long
    it rejuvenated
    left me a high that suppressed almost all the lows
    almost
    that needle in my arm
    finding its best friend once more
    vein
    I know it would be dangerous
    but how could I not when everything has been stripped
    stolen away from me
    it never felt this good before
    feeling that meth travel through my body
    but then again
    nothing has felt good since I last held her in my arms

    I saw death
    again
    I have been cut off from her for so ******** long
    it honestly scared me
    more then when I almost took life myself
    almost
    he held that knife to my throat
    funny how I wanted it so bad
    vain
    I know I need to live for her
    but how can I when she was everything to me, my life
    my child and love gone
    it never hurt this much before
    being so empty without her cherished laugh
    but then again
    nothing has felt good since I last held her in my arms…