• I hope you know I love you. I hope you know I'll always care. I wonder what would have been, then get stuck in the past. What if the future brings more painful goodbyes? What if it brings more joyful hellos? I don't want to say goodbye. I want to stay here forever with you, just like this, holding hands and talking, talking about nothing, nothing at all, just talking. Hold me here forever and never let go. Never leave me, and nothing bad will happen. When I'm with you, nothing can happen. When I'm here I want to say I love you, but I know it's just not right, we both have some one else, but what can a girl do when she is sitting with her first love, holding hands, then to find out he had loved me to, what is she supposed to do? Just act like it was nothing? That's harder then it looks. But I can't say what I want to, I have someone else that I love more then the whole world, and you have Ella, the one you are going to marry, but what is a girl to do? She can't just stand by when her first love walks away for maybe the last time, but she can't run after him. So I sit here and start to sob, until a feel a soft hand on my shoulder, and look up to see that you came back... and sat down to say those word I wanted to hear forever... but dreaded that they would be so soon. You took my hand and lightly said "Jordin I love you. I always will." You kissed my hand "I will never leave you, ever again, I promise." You wrap your arms around me and I hope it’s was just a dream. Though I know it’s not. I stood up and said "Remember I love you too, but this isn't right, you are getting married and I have my love, we can't be together, I'm sorry." I turn around and walk away, crying the whole way to my love. When I get to my love he asks “what’s wrong?” I tell him nothing, because he doesn’t know where I’ve really been, and he says “No, something’s wrong, what is it?” I sit him down on the seat, and lightly tell him “I think I love some one else, too, but, I love you more then anyone could ever.” He looks at me and I see the tears in his eyes “So you’re cheating on me.” He gets up and starts to walk away but I hold him back. “No, you are the only one I am in love with, but I will always love Seth.” My love turns back to me long enough to say “No.” and started to walk away, this time I don’t go after him, because I know it’s for the best. I sit where I am and cry, cry for what seemed like an eternity, but before I know it, you is right there, sitting by me again and I throw myself into you. “Seth, I love you, I’m sorry, I need you, don’t leave me, ever, I can’t live without you.” I start to cry and you just hold me and let me cry to you, holding me, rubbing me, and telling me over and over again, “I won’t, I’ll never leave you.” After forever, I pull myself to together “But what about Ella?” I stare into your eyes in confusion. “I came to tell you I ended it with her to be with you.” I smile a little, how sweet I want to say. “But why would you do that? I had Ryan. what if I hadn’t left him?” I start to feel tears come again. “what do you mean ‘You had him.’? and ‘What if I hadn’t?’ does that mean you did?” You say, just as confused as I felt. “He left me.” I say. I pull myself closer to you. I pull myself into your chest and want to stay like this. Forever. You gather me in you arms and stand up. “Let’s go home, its getting late.” you say. Then, for the first time I notice the moon is out. I nodded my head, and hold myself close to you and just stay there, when we get to your car you open the door and set me in the seat. I don’t want to let go of you let. You lightly pull away and shut the door. You walk around the car and get in the driver side and I push myself over so I am by your side. I put my seatbelt on and so do you. You start the car and kiss me lightly on the top of my head. A feeling of electricity goes down my spine. I blush and hide my face in your arm. I can almost feel you smile. I hope that this will never end, like the first time, when I had to say goodbye, but remember if it does, I love you, I always will.