• I call my brain "Umbra"
    From the shadows it collects
    The ones I hide with a smile
    The same no one detects
    The laughter hides the crying
    Joy then hides the pain
    My happiness is cracked
    Secrecy now leads to strain
    From reasons unbeknown to me
    I have no reason for this game
    The tears, the bleeding, the sadness
    No one but me to blame
    Though some may say they love me
    I hear nothing but their lies
    Things I do and talk about
    They secretly despise
    I am sick of these feelings
    My mind's static noise
    Teach these demons a lesson
    My emotions are not toys
    I want to crawl into hole
    And sleep a thousand years
    Down a bottle of ambien
    And wash away these fears
    Do not try to comfort me
    It's you that hurts the most
    I'm trying to push you far away
    Because I want to hold you close
    My mind is on it's soapbox
    Won't stop 'til it's said it's piece
    I will sadly be happy
    When time finishes this lease
    On and on it rambles
    Spilling dark, lost love and hate
    I know it won't surprise you
    When I loved only you of late
    Your blue eyes are the ocean
    I have been drowning in
    And your laughter is the echo
    I hear in the lion's den
    Does this mean that I hate you?
    As the French say, "Au contraire"
    Anytime I'm happy
    It's you that's always there
    I just don't know where you are
    Or if you still feel like before
    I wish to tell you my heart's story
    With or without the gore