• Im tired of these feelings
    the ones i cannot control
    they cloud my mind
    and make me sad
    and happy
    but when you know something will never be
    it hurts to have
    those feelings
    its a pain that burrows
    deep
    and continues to burrow
    until you cannot take it anymore
    until your heart cries out
    for the thing it wants
    but cannot have
    and you are in pain
    always in pain....

    and yet you continue to have those feelings
    because with the pain is a joy
    unending
    a joy that fill you
    bu what about the guilt
    the guilt fills you to
    and i just dont know what to do