Dead on the inside

• Artist: Kaia Black
• Description: About a friend ...as most of my poetry is ^^
• Date: 08/20/2011
• Tags: dead inside

I am dead inside
I am dead without
My mind is compromised
What am I All about?

I feel this anger
An emotion that will not go away
I don't know If i want it to
It keeps you people from me, but lead me astray

This rage comes from my own
It was created by my mind
But more than that
It was created when you left me behind

You betrayed all I knew
And left me in a desolate place
I live now only for my anger
I don't know if anyone will see my true face

My darkness, it rules me
It controls my very fate
I don't see how I'll ever be free
My very life created this hate

Something you will never see
Is the pain that storms through my soul
I bury it deep and hide it well
If Id didn't my very demon would reach their goal

With my very words you think I'm telling so much
But there is more to me then you'll ever know
My heart and soul are buried deep
There are many thing I'll never show

You could knwo me for a lifetime
And still you would not know it all
My anger and darkness cloak me well
My pain and fear close me off behind a steel wall

So take what you will from the things I say
You will never know the whole story
Trust me when I say you'd turn away
Especially the parts that are bloody and gory

My heart has drowned in a river
There is so much i can never explain
And the saddest thing of all you would know?
It's a deep, dark river...........of my own making.