i almost had myself fooled. I almost had myself convinced that i was actually going to get over things. Get better. Well i have one thing to tell you. I have been waiting for a ******** year and a half to get over things, and guess what?
NO
I don't know if i'll be able to do gaia anymore.....i took refuge in it in my times of need, and now it's pulling me down. Sounds stupid, i know. But it's just.....every time i get on this site i seem to be sad.....i don't know if i can take it anymore. just today i got on and checked things and saw my friends, the arenas, the forums.....and i cried.
i miss my friends like hell, and i'm only decieving myself when i wake up and pretend that everything's ok. i have somehow fooled the world around me into thinking that i was my old self again.....the me that everyone loved to be around, loved to talk to....not the girl 2 months ago which the most anyone got was an icy stare.
i'm beginning to wonder if i'll ever get out of this black whole of nothingness. but as someone who commented on my first journal entry said,
"maybe in hell i can use the flame for light..." /color]
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No matter who you are, no matter what you think you are, in my eyes, you know what you are. Like a sister. Like someone I care about. Like someone who shines.
Even if you hate yourself, I... don't hate you.
And no matter what you say, it will be okay. Maybe not right now, but it will be okay; if it doesn't come out that way naturally, then I'll MAKE it happen!