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Wow, I'm doing this again, even though it's been a wile since I've written in my journal, it doesn't seem like it's been too long, mainly because the same old s**t that was happening to me then is still happening. Life just seems like a repeat of a bad episode of your favorit show; you've seen the episode and know it's bad, but you want to watch it because it's your favorit show.

I've probebly said this before, but I don't even know why I write these things on gaia instead of in a personal journal or something; I leave them as public even though I don't care weather or not people read them, or maybe I subconciously do want someone to read them for some reason my concious mind can't comprehend.....or maybe I need to stop thinking so much about something so miniscule.

Moving on....I don't even know what to move on to, my life isn't to eventful, or at the very least, the parts that are eventful I can'tt or don't want to tell anyone. That's right, I, Garrett Cozart, the open book, have aspects of my life that I don't wan't people to know. Pretty stupid huh, the way that people keep secrets about themselves, even from the people they care about most, just to avoid a chance of humiliation or posible riticule; if the people you care about do react in that way, then why should you care about them? Is it because humans are so sensative as to not want rejection in any form?

The real reason that I think I do these journals is because it's a form of meditation for me, I just spill out what ever thoughts are bottled inside of me, and by doing that, I can sort them out and make sense of them, wile at the same time allowing others who are posibly in the same situation as myself feed off of my ideas. Once again, a fit of boardom has turned into an analitical and profound piece of writing that has helped me out.