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So last night I had a dream that I just can't shake. My pills helped me fight them off but since I haven't been taking them I worry that the dreams will get worse and worse.

So the dream involves Ryan and I. He comes up to visit and his dad comes too, except he's not realy my gorgeous hottie Ryan darling. It's this iranbian guy and he's not very cute, but I refer to him as Ryan cause the sit reminds me of Ry Ry even though Ry Ry would never scare me like this intentionally. His dad sleeps upstairs and Ryan and I sleep downstairs, in separate sleeping bags (no it's not a dirty dream). In the middle of the night, his dad comes downstairs with an ax. It's dark so he can't see im only in a bra and undies, which for some reason I knew were light blue. He swings towards me and keeps it just an inch away from me each time. I am scared out of my wits but since it's night I don't want to wake anyone up and it is Ry Ry's dad so I don't want him in trouble, cause I want him to stay. He finally knicks my shoulder and cuts my bra strap on the right. He takes his thumb and runs it on the blood, dragging it over the blade then licks his finger.

I cna't really remember the rest right now and this was hard enought to type cause it scares me outta my witts TT.TT