Ok so its my first entry and its almost 1 in the morning here. I get alittle goofy around this time idk y. Today feels like i wasted it. I spent the whole day on my computer on gaia and i listened 2 my ipod. But the good news is it couldve been worse biggrin well i did go out and get some new dc shoes. the are black with a green dc logo and they hav black and white checkered laces. my old ones fell apart after a year and a half plus they were white and got dirty really quick. Right now im listening 2 the jetset life is gonna kill u. Actually compared 2 the rest of my week 2day was fabulous. I have been having an extremly crappy week. Ok so last sunday night i had a panic attack which i will not go into detail about srry, then monday in firsthr i got a referral 2 the principal and well that was fun! Not! then on tuesday i had 2 go to alc after skool which is pretty much a detetion, wendsday i was upset 4 reasons i can t remember but i was upset with myself i think i screwed something up but that was 4ever ago and i can remeber, i dont remeber thurday either stare but friday was horrible i got burned in science by tinfoil that i was stupid enuf 2 touch after i just got done puting it in a fire then i got in a big fight with my bestest best friend and we were mad @ each other 4 6 whole hours then we made up. he started it tho he just had 2 go and piss me off by now showing up where he promised he would and i thought he ditched me and one of my other best friends but really he didnt and then i thought he was lying bout it then he got mad @ me cuz i blamed it on his girlfriend. i said that she tried 2 get him 2 not meet us where we planned which is something she would do. she completely 100% hates my guts. she dont even know me and she hear a rumor bout me and then she just decided i was 2 b hated by her. shes even trying 2 get ponyboy(my bestest best friend) 2 stop being best friends with me even tho we were best friends b4 she even came into the picture and she has no right 2 talk smack bout me behind my back 2 ponyboy cuz he tells me all the garbage she says bout me. and thru all this i still dont hate her cuz guess wat? after skool gets out shes moving 2 maine and shes never going 2 c ponyboy agen. but i feel bad 4 him cuz hes already sad and im gonna stick by him and b there 4 him cuz he loves her and i know how much its gonna hurt him. ive lost friends and it hurts bad but loseing lovers is way worse. so anyways now that we got that out of the way wats next. hmmmmmm. . . . . oh yeah and thursday night and some other night i bad dreams. one of them i was hanging beside a building 600ft above the ground and i was scared cuz in afraid of heights and my mom kep telling me 2 jump onto the building and finally i id and i almost didnt make it but luckily i did and then my other dream i was standing there with my boy friend wyatt and a bunch of older guys came over and started making fun of us mostly me and after a while i just couldnt take it any more and i ran away crying. oh and on friday morning i found out that after i gave ponyboy a list of my 25 fears which i said i needed back he let some chick who dont know me look @ it and write ur so pathetic on it! that upset me cuz i know im pathetic and i dont need strangers 2 point that out. but he didnt know she wrote that but watever its in the past now. hey now its 1:05 am! xp one of my biggest pet peeves is 4 example this dude i dont really know comes over 2 me and makes a comment 2 his friends bout my rose that i used 2 carry on my binder and says its emo and that implies that i am 2. i am not emo i dont even dress like an emo or a goth and i dont believe in labels. dont judge a book by its cover. just cuz someone wears hollister and abercromie doesnt mean theyr a prep and just cuz someone wears dark eyeliner and wears dark colors all the time doesnt mean theyr goth(not talking bout me) anther one of my best friends (jordyn) had issues with people judgeing her but its 2 bad she dont go 2 my skool or i would jump them. NOBODY MESSES WITH MY FRIENDS. a couple monthes ago these stuck up guys who think theyr jocks but they dont play any sports where giving anther one of my best friends (lizzy) a hard time 4 no reason just coming up 2 her and making fun of her so me and ponyboy and a couple other of our friends steped in and it almost broke out into a fight but they backed down. they got lucky. so im gonna continue 2 post entys in my journal whether people actualy read them or not. if u wanna comment thats fine im hoping at least one post a day mayb more. hope this was @ least somewat interesting 4 any one who reads it doubt that anyone will but watever the purpose of journals is the same as music 2 get ur feelings out and express urself. so i guess thats all 4 now i will talk 2 yall later. byes ninja
heart Haley
 XxXmychemicaladdictionXxX · Sun Apr 06, 2008 @ 09:23am · 1 Comments |
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