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The unknown world



The clicking of a pen,
The beating of a heart,
The ticking of a clock,
And the soft humming that slips from your lips.

Such soft sounds,
Such large emotions,
Such feelings of home,
Such feelings of lost

The unknown sounds of peace,
The forgotten thoughts of hope,
The luscious feelings of love,
And the feeling of being needed

The creatures that live within,
This unsought power

I wish for it to brake,
I want it to die
Please let it fall
Please let me die

Don’t let me fall,
Don’t let me brake,
Hold me close,
For heaven sake

The soft beating of a drum,
This melancholy tune,
Caressing our ears with terror
Filling our bodies with sorrow

It bites us,
Makes us bleed,
Every single open wound,
Let them never heal

Cut me again,
Burn my flesh
Send me to the depths of hell if you wish.

But don’t forget to write,
Don’t let me go
From your sight

Watch me closely,
For once you are gone,
My heart has fallen,
My spirit will never atone

Softly yet surely,
The feelings have turned raw,
Taken by surprise,
The depression spells fall

Lead me to the unknown
Take me by the hand,
Why can’t I see it?
Why can’t I understand?

Give me the knowledge,
Give me the strength,
I want to die,
But I don’t want to break

The black unknown,
It calls me in the night,
It forces me to shed the tears,
The tears of crimson blood drops,
That pierce threw my eyes

I shudder in fear,
I want to run,
Want to hide

Nothing is their,
Nothing can touch me,
It scares me how much I know

I don’t know if it can be true
If I were to fall,
Would some one catch me?
If I were to run,
Would some one follow me?

If I were to die,
Would their be someone to cry,
To shed at least one tear for me,
To grant me that one feeling

To known I’m needed,
To know I’m wanted
The unknown can never touch me
It can never see me

Let it take me,
Let me bleed,
The crimson liquid that courses threw my veins,
Let it out,
Let me see

My heart beats at a steady pace,
I feel it throbbing in my chest
I lift a finger,
Feeling its soft beats

How easily I can rip it out,
How simple it would be to crush
The soft flesh that protects it,
How painful it would be to break it

It is no problem to me,
No known fact,
It’s just a heart,
A heart that will soon turn black

I wish it to throb,
To beat,
To love

I want to feel it,
I want to remember,
Every thing I’ve learned,
Every thing I know

Such things,
Of a mind so different,
Are their others?

Are their others that can see it?
If but only a few,
Are they really there?

Can they truly open theirs eyes,
And look at this world,
The way it originally is?

Can they see the lies,
And the man maid hell we’ve created?
Or can they just nod
Can they just pretend?

I don’t wish for that,
I don’t want one bit of it,
I want them too see,
I want them to feel it

The selfish unknown,
I don’t care any more
I can see what’s right,
But my past is so wrong

Every inch of it was created,
In order to please,
To please and make happy,
Those who wished it

I wanted to smile,
I wanted to breathe,
Is it possible?
I’m I truly meant to die this way?

Am I supposed to live like this for always?
To please no matter how cruel the punishment,
It’s my fault,
It’s always my fault.

I am not perfect,
I can see that so clearly,
I am nothing in this world,
I am but a passing face in the distance

I am the girl with the broken smile,
I am the one with the gloomy eyes of pain,
The one who holds the soft smile
The smile that only wishes to forgive

If I may have one wish,
Would you be able to grant it?
Can you give me this one chance to see?
Please, that’s all I ask of the

I wish for them to open their eyes,
Let them see what I and he can see
He can see it too

His eyes are like mine,
If he can see as well,
Then does that mean,
I do have a meaning?

He can see,
I can see,
I want you to see too,
Can you do that for me?

Please,
Just this once,
Open your eyes,
Let every thing sink in

Let the unknown take you,
Just don’t breathe it in.
If you do,
You’ll be trapped

It can take you
And never let you go back
It will make it so you can never see the lights

The darkness scares me,
It truly does,
I hate it,
Every inch of it

I sit on the roof,
As much as possible,
The sun is their,
It’s brings to me the light,
And it warms my soul

All the dark did was taunt me
It laughed in my face,
Forced me to believe,
Forced me to see

It is my fault,
Every single day,
It’s my fault,
Always

I’m the one, who did it,
I’m the one, who said it,
I’m the one, who broke it,
I’m the one who bent it

Take it out one me,
They had nothing to do with it,
It was merely an accident,
But I know who did it

It was them,
But I did it
I did it,
So leave them be

Stop yelling at them,
And punish me,
Throw me to the ground,
You’ve done it before

Pull me by the hair,
Because you know what,
I truly don’t care,
I have no more feeling,

You’ve broken my body,
You ripped my spirit
Why,
How,
Who,
-would every do such a thing

What that man did,
What that man does,
But he protects me from that man
He knows what that man does

That man does not like me
That man hurts me,
In order to fix me
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect for that man

I know I am not strong,
My body is weak,
But my soul is strong,
I may be young,
But my mind knows much beyond

That unknown world,
The places in it
The people in it,
Every thing is blind

Nothing can see,
There are no people,
Nothing but darkness
It scares me very much

But I know some were,
As long as I don’t forget it,
I know were I can find it,
I know were my light is

I know were I can smile,
I know were I can cry,
There is no need to fake it,
There is no need to hide

I can truly and honestly say it,
No hesitations needed,
No strings attached

The unknown is gone,
I am a stranger to it now,
Even if I still visit from time to time,
I never make myself a burden to its hours
No matter how hard it tries to pull me back

I wish to leave it,
And to never return,
To live in the unknown,
The darkness within,
It is merely a desperate cry

A cry in the dark that can never be heard,
I want to be heard,
I don’t want to be pushed aside,
I don’t want to be left their again,
Never

I can never,
I refuse to,
And even if I do,
I will just smile,
And pretend that no such things every happened,
No such things ever existed

My forced smiles will be back,
And not a soul will ever know,
We will all continue living,
In this hell hole we call a home




~Chi ♥