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Mood: dfadfafd
Song: Let Me Be With You; ItsfromChobits so stfu. Rose Red; EA

...I've been thinking.
Such a Wonderful Horrid thing.
Well.
I guess this thinking...thought* process wasn't as bad as it could have been.
But these thoughts are taboo,
Supposed to be buried in the past.
But the past never lies long does it?
It just has to dig itself out of the little man made trench I made it.
Bastards.
I worked hard on that hole D:<
Kay. Back to the point.
Did I ever really love you?
Or was it just me being my overly protective self?
Did I?
Or was it a different love?
I'm not quiet sure.
No.
I know I just..
I can't word my love for you.
Its not lyk OMFG LETS MAKE OUT.
Or OMFG ILYILYILY LETS GET MARRIED.
Its just...Different.
Strong?
Yes. But not like that.
Not couple ish.
I almost want to say more mature
But that down right makes no sense at all.
...Does anything really make sense between us anyway, lawl?
Everything we spit out is utter nonsense.
I don't even need to be discrete everyone knows who I'm talking about
And if you don't your just thickheaded or don't understand or haven't known me for very long.
Oh and then there's Taly. Drew. My wifey.
Ugfh. I hate having someone gone.
It...Messes with the normality well my normality of things.
And the loneliness is painful.
Very.
...I don't blame anyone for getting bitchy and moody without their lover around.
Its horrible.
And no Drewy if yew read this I want yew as my main course.
Even if I was talking about Connor through the first part of my journal.
Me and Connor aren't lovers. P:
We won't be lawl.
I don't want to be wiff him like that.
I was foolish for thinking that I did.
I think I was just scared of losing my best friend to another girl.
Eh. Thats how selfish I am. Wanting everyone to myself.
Anyway.
I think Ima stop because I hate spilling my guts on the floor for everyone to see.
Hey. What are journals for though?
Their like...The scalpel to cut your skin open revealing the REAL you to everyone to see.
Ihateit. But I do it.
YEAH.
I'm seriously going to stop now.
Hm.
I wonder if I can hit the submit button...
>w>;;
This is ridiculous. Screw it in the bootie wiff a black man's p***s D;
LET EVERYONE SEE MY EMOTIONS.
Leave a comment and I'll hurt you
D;<