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I realized tonight that none of the stuff I own makes me happy, and I have no idea why I strive to keep any of it.

If you found the one thing that truly makes you happy, and in order to get it you would have to give up everything. Your nice house, your computer, your Wii, or whatever other possessions you care for so much, would you? Could you?

I've found the one thing that makes me happy, and in order to get it I may have to give up my comfort. I've been pampered my whole life and thus I am now afraid to leave my cozy little nest.

My mom has no problem supporting me in full so long as I follow her happiness and desires. Mine come second to hers, and until now I've been okay with that. But I know if I were to tell her.... I have told her.... but if I were to tell her again that my happiness doesn't coincide with hers any longer my only option would be to fake a smile and put myself second to her or to leave her. If I leave she will probably never forgive me, and may never let me back in should I want or need to.

So now I'm stuck between choosing happiness or choosing comfort.
I want to say I'm strong enough and brave enough to choose happiness, but can I?