Song: Hands Down; Dashboard Confessional
Mood: Uhh. I uno?
Hrmm~
I actually have time to write and SOMETHING to write about.
Well a variety of things.
Where to start...uh..
Love?
Lawlawl. When have I not been talking about something pertaining to love? I mean seriously. Jesus.
>>;
But this time~ It doesn't really deal with meee~ Score.
Anyway.
I was a chatting on the interwebs. And like someone told me that they finally confessed and everything. But the girl said no and what not.
And, naturally, that person was depressed. Who I hate to see depressed cuz shes awesome. :c And I like fail at cheering people up so I'm pretty sure I just kinda made it worse.
Me: Well it could be worse?
Her: Not really.
Me: Lol she could hate you and never want to speak to you again?
Her: I'm fine with that.
Lolwat.
I still don't get it.
I don't know.
Forgetting is easy to live with...But...I wouldn't want to forget them? Because I love them?
Maybe I just like the pain.
I don't know.
When Connor first told me that he didn't want me and what not.
I still totally wanted to be friends with him. I would have hated it if we weren't.
Hm. Maybe its just because we have that weird connection. I uno.
But then on the other hand. I totally wanted to push Drew out of my life. For good. Lawl.
However, to be truthful Drew was fun to talk to and I do kinda miss him as a friend. That doesn't mean I'm going to go out of my way to talk to him. Lolnothx.
I just don't get it. I mean...I would hate to forget that person. I hate to have them shove me away. I just think it would hurt worse?
Maybe I'm just an odd person...I don't really know anymore.
Ha. Did I ever know myself?
No.
Still don't, lul.
Some of the things I say and do surprise even me.
How pathetic is it that I don't understand my own emotions?
Rachel got super pissed today and was ragging about how Ronnie, Hunter, and whatshisface don't show emotions.
And how Ronnie's a cutter and what not, and how she didn't understand if they had enough emotion to hurt themselves how they didn't have enough to talk to someone.
So brilliant me had to have my say in this:
"Well...Some people have a hard time expressing themselves. And the only way to get it out of them is through an action. Not words. Like we CAN'T express our feelings."
Rachel: I know Paige. I've talked to cutters before.
No. You don't know. You haven't experienced it. You don't understand how hard it is to tell someone something or get your emotions out. Hell, its so bad sometimes I can't even grasp what emotion I am feeling or why I'm in a bad mood.
Bleh.
I kinda feel sucky right now...
I don't know why either, ha ha ha.
Well.
I do but I don't think my little journal readers need to know.
;]
Mood: Uhh. I uno?
Hrmm~
I actually have time to write and SOMETHING to write about.
Well a variety of things.
Where to start...uh..
Love?
Lawlawl. When have I not been talking about something pertaining to love? I mean seriously. Jesus.
>>;
But this time~ It doesn't really deal with meee~ Score.
Anyway.
I was a chatting on the interwebs. And like someone told me that they finally confessed and everything. But the girl said no and what not.
And, naturally, that person was depressed. Who I hate to see depressed cuz shes awesome. :c And I like fail at cheering people up so I'm pretty sure I just kinda made it worse.
Me: Well it could be worse?
Her: Not really.
Me: Lol she could hate you and never want to speak to you again?
Her: I'm fine with that.
Lolwat.
I still don't get it.
I don't know.
Forgetting is easy to live with...But...I wouldn't want to forget them? Because I love them?
Maybe I just like the pain.
I don't know.
When Connor first told me that he didn't want me and what not.
I still totally wanted to be friends with him. I would have hated it if we weren't.
Hm. Maybe its just because we have that weird connection. I uno.
But then on the other hand. I totally wanted to push Drew out of my life. For good. Lawl.
However, to be truthful Drew was fun to talk to and I do kinda miss him as a friend. That doesn't mean I'm going to go out of my way to talk to him. Lolnothx.
I just don't get it. I mean...I would hate to forget that person. I hate to have them shove me away. I just think it would hurt worse?
Maybe I'm just an odd person...I don't really know anymore.
Ha. Did I ever know myself?
No.
Still don't, lul.
Some of the things I say and do surprise even me.
How pathetic is it that I don't understand my own emotions?
Rachel got super pissed today and was ragging about how Ronnie, Hunter, and whatshisface don't show emotions.
And how Ronnie's a cutter and what not, and how she didn't understand if they had enough emotion to hurt themselves how they didn't have enough to talk to someone.
So brilliant me had to have my say in this:
"Well...Some people have a hard time expressing themselves. And the only way to get it out of them is through an action. Not words. Like we CAN'T express our feelings."
Rachel: I know Paige. I've talked to cutters before.
No. You don't know. You haven't experienced it. You don't understand how hard it is to tell someone something or get your emotions out. Hell, its so bad sometimes I can't even grasp what emotion I am feeling or why I'm in a bad mood.
Bleh.
I kinda feel sucky right now...
I don't know why either, ha ha ha.
Well.
I do but I don't think my little journal readers need to know.
;]
